Upon awakening today, I was not feelin’ like myself……I awoke feeling off balance within, I have a full plate right now, full of good and not so good items…….I think all my mixed emotions caught up with each other as I slept, leaving me with the end result of letting go of what I can change as well as what I cannot. I attempt to sit in meditation, and I fidget the entire time, thoughts racing through my mind, eyeballs dancing around as I attempt to ground, no real connection made with my breath……Ugh…..I get up and move into a few sun salutations, then I hang out in a head stand for 10 min, as the sweat drops begin racing down my inverted head, I fix my gaze onto a meditation pillow that is in front of me……..I choose the head stand because I must focus to hold the pose, leading me to connect deeply with my breath……I follow my head stand up with a few other asanas, then grab my gym bag (packed it last night ) and head out, to teach my 07:30 class………Even teaching the class this morning I was not my usual self, I know this was not one of my better teaching sessions……I don’t like that……sigh…….I mention this to a friend who suggest that it may have something to do with all the unstable weather we’ve been having, temps ranging from 20-50 degrees in 12 hours, rain, snow, sun……I don’t know…..I’m very in tuned with nature so I guess it could have something to do with it….I don’t know……But what I do know is I needed to get BALANCED!
Arriving at the gym to get my work out in for the day, I change into my running gear, feeling meh……A run, swim and steam bath were on tap today, and in between the run and swim I taught a noon class………I never thought twice about the run today, no negativity, no "I don’t want to run today", I just laced up my kicks and hopped on……Usually, I’ll have the TV on in front of me, no volume or anything I just glance at the captions and peeps (distractions), not today…..today, I turn off the TV as soon as I began running, I found it rather annoying for some reason……I covered the screen on the treadmill so I could not see my progress, I even cranked up the pace without looking to see what pace I’d be running at……I began running, immediately it was clear to me, that the pace was set rather high, I quickly thought about taking a peak to see my pace, but decided against it. I hit the shuffle button on my Ipod, and Fabolous *Breathe* plays, I run, as the song nears the end I set the repeat button, and proceed to run to Breathe the entire 60 minutes…..Yup……I found myself actually listening and responding to Fabolous commands to breathe…..each time the song played I’d belt out the lyrics and sing along with Fab…
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta BREATHE
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta BREATHE
Then you gotta (gasp)
Sure did…..I dunno, singing this song and running at this faster pace was doing something to me…..sweat was pouring off me before the song ended the first time…I was running whatever I was carrying out……I DID NOT STOP! It felt medicinal and meditative at the same time….running meditation……I’ll take it! I had so much mental energy this morning that I could not sit still in meditation, RUNNING (go figure) is what put me into a meditative state today…..the blackened TV screen in front of me allowed me to look myself dead in the eyes as I ran, I kept my gazed fixed on my face on the screen…….I began to feel really good…..strong good, I got this good……Knees….well they never said a word today…….I was running on something deeper today…..some PURE ENERGIES, that wanted to break out in the most aggressive way and make things clearer for me…….“Oh, OK, I feel it” I think to myself…..thought of stopping never entered my mind…..I ran, and ran and ran…..as Fab & I repeatedly sang in unison;
I address the haters and under estimaters
And ride up on them like they escalators
They shook up and hooked up to respirators
On they last breath talking to investigators
I'm a breath of fresh air
And a fresh pair
Face it boo and do it till your face get blue
And then BREATHE
I was feeling better each time my feet hit the belt, there were runners on either side of me, I barley noticed them I was in a ZONE……a real cleansing letting go running ZONE…….singing;
Everybody BREATHE
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta.. BREATHE
Then you gotta..
Then you gotta..
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
The song is 4:30 minutes in length….which means I listened and sang to it just about 14 times…..Wow……Like I said the Ipod was on repeat, so when my 60 minutes were up and I began my cool down I just hit the next button on the Ipod, and how fitting, but yet ironic, that my cool down song was *Breath & Stop* By Q-Tip…..Ironic…..hummm, NOT…..it’s karmic energies knowing exactly what I needed…….I remove the towels as the treadmill slows me down into my cool off, realizing I ran two paces higher than Monday, which put me at 12:14 miles/hour……AND……I’d run 5.2 miles……Wow…..Clearly I had something’s to let go of……CLEARLY!! I feel GOOD, I mean really GOOD after that run…….I did surprise myself and actually stood on the treadmill guzzling water with an astonished look on my face and within’……”did I really just do that” I ask myself…..Whoa……Not sure if this is a one time only thing (for now) but I do know it’s what I needed. Funny, the one thing in this training I dislike, balanced me out today……nothing ever happens, just because……I’m gonna let that time and pace go, no attachment, I’m very proud of my time and pace but the next run, is just that, the NEXT run, and I have no expectations……..Um, Thanks Running?!…..I dunno….
After a trip to the locker room to towel down and change into flip flops I head back up to the yoga studio, where I move through a few poses to stretch things out, then I rest in savasana until my noon class begins, feeling at peace I sink into my mat consciously aware, but mentally, physically, and spiritually, released…….Savasana, never felt so good…….Ahhhhh……I really have a new respect for running after today…..really……NOW this does not mean I will LOVE running anytime soon, but it’s a start!
As I lay in the steam bath, my mind was free of chatter and racing thoughts, I felt at peace, happy, content, in love with ME!! I’ll top things off with a nice Vietnamese dinner this evening with a dear friend….hitting the sack at a reasonable hour, so I can be ready for tomorrows training…….I never could have imagined that this training would take me this deep within myself…….no hiding out here, my mind, body and spirit are standing a united front and NOT allowing it……AIN’T NO STOPPIN' ME NOW……I GOT THE GROOVE & I’M ON THE MOVE!!
Peace,
T
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| OK, maybe NOT Love.....Lol |
Tri Stories: Ain’t No Stoppin’ *ME* Now…..
Upon awakening today, I was not feelin’ like myself……I awoke feeling off balance within, I have a full plate right now, full of good and not so good items…….I think all my mixed emotions caught up with each other as I slept, leaving me with the end result of letting go of what I can change as well as what I cannot. I attempt to sit in meditation, and I fidget the entire time, thoughts racing through my mind, eyeballs dancing around as I attempt to ground, no real connection made with my breath……Ugh…..I get up and move into a few sun salutations, then I hang out in a head stand for 10 min, as the sweat drops begin racing down my inverted head, I fix my gaze onto a meditation pillow that is in front of me……..I choose the head stand because I must focus to hold the pose, leading me to connect deeply with my breath……I follow my head stand up with a few other asanas, then grab my gym bag (packed it last night ) and head out, to teach my 07:30 class………Even teaching the class this morning I was not my usual self, I know this was not one of my better teaching sessions……I don’t like that……sigh…….I mention this to a friend who suggest that it may have something to do with all the unstable weather we’ve been having, temps ranging from 20-50 degrees in 12 hours, rain, snow, sun……I don’t know…..I’m very in tuned with nature so I guess it could have something to do with it….I don’t know……But what I do know is I needed to get BALANCED!
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| Take time to re-balance yourself |
Arriving at the gym to get my work out in for the day, I change into my running gear, feeling meh……A run, swim and steam bath were on tap today, and in between the run and swim I taught a noon class………I never thought twice about the run today, no negativity, no "I don’t want to run today", I just laced up my kicks and hopped on……Usually, I’ll have the TV on in front of me, no volume or anything I just glance at the captions and peeps (distractions), not today…..today, I turn off the TV as soon as I began running, I found it rather annoying for some reason……I covered the screen on the treadmill so I could not see my progress, I even cranked up the pace without looking to see what pace I’d be running at……I began running, immediately it was clear to me, that the pace was set rather high, I quickly thought about taking a peak to see my pace, but decided against it. I hit the shuffle button on my Ipod, and Fabolous *Breathe* plays, I run, as the song nears the end I set the repeat button, and proceed to run to Breathe the entire 60 minutes…..Yup……I found myself actually listening and responding to Fabolous commands to breathe…..each time the song played I’d belt out the lyrics and sing along with Fab…
WOO!
WOO!
WOO!
BREATHE!
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta BREATHE
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta BREATHE
Then you gotta (gasp)
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| I got the music in me... |
Sure did…..I dunno, singing this song and running at this faster pace was doing something to me…..sweat was pouring off me before the song ended the first time…I was running whatever I was carrying out……I DID NOT STOP! It felt medicinal and meditative at the same time….running meditation……I’ll take it! I had so much mental energy this morning that I could not sit still in meditation, RUNNING (go figure) is what put me into a meditative state today…..the blackened TV screen in front of me allowed me to look myself dead in the eyes as I ran, I kept my gazed fixed on my face on the screen…….I began to feel really good…..strong good, I got this good……Knees….well they never said a word today…….I was running on something deeper today…..some PURE ENERGIES, that wanted to break out in the most aggressive way and make things clearer for me…….“Oh, OK, I feel it” I think to myself…..thought of stopping never entered my mind…..I ran, and ran and ran…..as Fab & I repeatedly sang in unison;
I address the haters and under estimaters
And ride up on them like they escalators
They shook up and hooked up to respirators
On they last breath talking to investigators
I'm a breath of fresh air
And a fresh pair
Face it boo and do it till your face get blue
And then BREATHE
I was feeling better each time my feet hit the belt, there were runners on either side of me, I barley noticed them I was in a ZONE……a real cleansing letting go running ZONE…….singing;
Everybody BREATHE
One and then the two
Two and then the three
Three and then the four
Then you gotta.. BREATHE
Then you gotta..
Then you gotta..
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
BREATHE
Oh* BREATHE
BREATHE
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| Breathe |
After a trip to the locker room to towel down and change into flip flops I head back up to the yoga studio, where I move through a few poses to stretch things out, then I rest in savasana until my noon class begins, feeling at peace I sink into my mat consciously aware, but mentally, physically, and spiritually, released…….Savasana, never felt so good…….Ahhhhh……I really have a new respect for running after today…..really……NOW this does not mean I will LOVE running anytime soon, but it’s a start!
Up next my swim…….I was solo again today, no John…..Truth I quickly thought about ditching the swim today, but gently reminded myself that the only person I’d be cheating would be myself, I was not tired or anything so……no excuse……I change into my swim suit and hit the pool……I so enjoy swimming, even though, I’m not great at it, I LOVE IT….I dunno, something about being in the water, just revives me. I swim for 45 minutes…..a total of FOUR LAPS!! WOOT WOOOOOT!!! Seriously, I was all over this swim…..simply KILLIN' IT……“So, what it’s taking me 45 min” I think to myself…..”so what, I’m stopping ever quarter lap to rest” SO WHAT!” I say out loud….I’m SWIMMING and that’s all that matters to me! Two months ago I could not imagine swimming ¼ lap, not to mention a FULL LAP (into the deepest end) and here I am today JUST DOIN' IT……..Yup, I was giving myself all types of, Toot, toot’s hey beep, beep’s! Lol……You have now idea how empowering that run and swim were for me today! Again signs from the universe, confirming me to stay on my path……There must be road blocks along the journey, they help you grow…….it’s not the road blocks that stop people, it’s what we decide to do when we encounter them……..I’mma BUST THROUGH EACH ONE! YUP!
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| Hiyaa!! (tee-hee) |
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| And everyday! Peace Y'all |
Peace,
T
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